Monday January 23,2012

Today I watched my neice Bailey Grace while my brother helped a friend out. Boy was it fun. I always enjoy watching her! She is almost four months old. So it gets me some practice before Geneva gets here. It allows me to figure out how to continue with daily life while entertaining a baby. I will admit it was challenging. It will be even more challenging when Geneva is here because she will not be going anywhere as for Bailey Grace her parents come and get her a few hours later. I am sure I will find my groove when Geneva gets here. It almost makes me kind of worried of how I will do as a mom. People always say that I will be a great mom. I have had a lot of experience with kids from ages to newborn to ten years old. Though everyone says that it will be different with your own child. I have a lot of anxiety during this pregnancy. I have never had to deal with anxiety before so it is a major rollarcoaster for Michael and I. Michael has been great at keeping me calm. I don't know what I would do if I didn't have my husband. He has been wonderful to me through all my mood swings and anxiety attacks. The anxiety is more of the unknown of what is going to happen with labor and being a parent. I just put my anxiety and worries about it all to God. I know that he wouldn't have blessed me with this baby if He didn't think that I could handle it. I know He has a plan with it all. I just have to keep trusting Him.